freedominique

Yes, I am closing my DA journal. I no longer use it. I no longer need it. So to my dear friend, Dr. Meh, thank you for all your support these past years. I have and always will appreciate the comments you sent me. And to many years of tireless writing, goodbye darling. Goodbye story, goodbye teenage drama, goodbye stupid mistakes, goodbye wonderful moments of inspiration.  I love you but we must move on lovelies. We must grow up. "I've been taking chances, I've been setting myself up for the fall, I've been keeping secrets, From my heart and from and from my soul. Going from row to row, Back to back, Lover to lover, Black to red, A

My greatest flaw, or one of them at least, is that given the choice I would rather be the criminal than the victim. Having said that it is evident that the flaw that branches out into all my flaws is my desire to protect myself. It is my soverign law. It governs me. I will hurt others and myself to avoid greater damage to my person. I will arm myself at the slightest hunch that danger lurks nearby and I will do so quietly, silently, not talking, without the smile falling from my face, without the slightest hint that such a lethal shift has occured. And It can occur, as it has, in a moment, in a second of a pleasant conversation turned secretl

I feel solid. I feel capable of confronting my flaws and accepting them. I feel, for perhaps the first time in my life, that I can walk through pain. I can walk through without stumbling, without fighting, without crumbling into the pressure. I took a step up, I grew a little... I've gained something that's been a long time coming. I feel older. I feel steady. I feel solid. I'm not afraid to be me and I know who I am.